Monday, January 1, 2007

New neck, New Year

Who the hell wears this much makeup, you ask? Me, on New Year's Eve. Going out to dinner. I put makeup on my pin scars for the first time. Made them look very faint. Now I just need my clown suit, and I'm good to ring in 2007.

My first day back at work is tomorrow. I feel strangely nervous and kind of, well, fragile. Isn't that weird? Like I'm a different person going back to work. I know it will be so good to see everyone but the butterflies abound, nevertheless. Just have to remember to take it one day at a time.

I went to see Dr. G for my two-week follow-up last week. He made me look left to right, then up and down. He didn't see any problems with my progress so far. I told him that I had started driving (cautiously) again, and he said that was okay. I'm not allowed to return to the gym for at least two more months (the time of our next scheduled doctor visit). I can't even run. I guess it makes sense. Still, I fear the blubber mounting. A nice little holiday package of extra weight from too many cookies.

Mobility in my neck gets better each day. I can look to the left fairly well, but not as well on the right side (my bad side). Still, it's much better than a week ago. I'm getting around pretty nicely. I heat up one of those bed buddies in the microwave and put it around my neck to loosen up my muscles. It really helps.

Holidays were really nice. Emotional. My mom was so happy to see me without the halo. Lots of tears. My sister, Sekita, kept hugging me. It was so nice to be all together. I wrote Tatiana a letter, telling her how much I could never pay her back for all she has done for me, how much I appreciate her love and kindness, her beautiful face. She really does have the most beautiful face. I see her coming towards me and I know that I am safe. What a lucky, lucky girl I am.

I know that the coming weeks will be emotional. Taxing. Draining. But they will also be magnificent. I will be sure to write more on my progress as time goes on.


carlos said...

Enjoyed reading your blog. I am in a halo and I'm hopeful it will come off next Tuesday. Believe me, I'm counting down the days. Sounds like your experience was similar to mine. Glad to hear the weakness in the neck passes quickly...

Tom Bailey said...

I liked reading your blog. I hope that things go well for you. I have known a person that went through this type of experience and she ended up becoming a much stronger person in the process.

I wish you continued improvements.